What is the issue!!

I wish we knew what was going on with him, but now we're back with him not wanting to eat and acting like he's afraid to take anything from me.  It is frustrating and mind numbing when we realize it's so much like what Oreo began to do when she didn't feel well.  It is so hard to know what the issue is with him. You so wish they talk!! They could just look at you and simply say, I don't feel well here, I don't feel well here.  It is mind reading and you are guessing at the reasons why they are acting like they do.  He is acting like he doesn't feel well and we are at Tuesday and we still need to make it to Thursday or sooner.

I even asked Bob should we take him to the ER? Do we know what to tell them when we do? That he is not acting like himself? That he seems desperate to tell me something but I don't know what it is? That we are at a loss as to why he is doing what he's doing, even though he slept ok last night, that he seems to be restful for the most part except after giving him a bath this morning?  It seems as if he can't find the spot he needs to go to, and he keeps telling me to find it and let him know!

So this is where we are after so many relatively good months and November 11, 2013 will mark 11 months since his surgery. But it's also the month we finally made a follow up appointment with the original surgeon who did the removal of his jaw and now another oncology appointment on Thursday of this week so we can follow up with the doctor who showed us such compassion and concern.  I fear we are seeing something so similar to Oreo that we are facing another long goodbye...how can it be that he would have the same thing?? But he sits here shaking like she did and trembling...it's like a nightmare and I can't get out of it.

So we will face another bad thing and we have no idea what we'll do...put him through the hell that was oncology? Or surgery? Or just let him go?  What is the answer again...

We will check him in tonight if we have to at the ER and we'll be praying for a miracle either way.

We love you Diggie Dog.